Over the past weeks, months even a terrible sensation has fallen over me that’s hard to put into words exactly. It’s only gotten worse. It’s so desperately sobering. It’s not a happy message, and definitely not fluff. When it came to me I felt almost as I was sucker punched in the gut. It went beyond, deeper, then a lot of things that come to me on the surface, for lack of a better term of how to point it out. This seemed to rise up from within. And it held me there. When it would slowly push out of my mind, as I am human and get distracted, it would come again and rattle me again, and again, and again.
One thing I’ve come to understand… I’ve mentioned before I’m a bit of a slow learner when it comes to the things of God, right?… is that if something is of God, it will be confirmed in His word. In fact, I would dare to say it’s one of the “easiest” ways to see if someone is a false teacher or true. God’s message will not contradict His Word, for the Word of God is His mind. The Word of God tells us to test the spirits. It even gives the example of the Bereans, who diligently searched each thing Paul taught, whether those things he said were truth or not. We would do well to emulate them.
Acts 17:11 These were more noble than those in Thessalonica, in that they received the word with all readiness of mind, and searched the scriptures daily, whether those things were so.
I was reading a quote. I had just logged onto Pinterest and there it was but unfortunately as soon as the website loads on the app on my phone it refreshes and I had milliseconds to read it before it disappeared and I couldn’t locate it again. It was powerful. “Discernment isn’t just the ability to distinguish between right and wrong, truth and error, but between truths and half-truths.” Wow. That’s quite terrifying come to think of it. This is the day of deception. The Bible says if it were possible they would deceive the very elect.
Matthew 24:24 For there shall arise false Christs, and false prophets, and shall shew great signs and wonders; insomuch that, if it were possible, they shall deceive the very elect.
How can we know Truth if we don’t know the Word of God? Oh for a love of the Word of God.
2 Timothy 2:15 Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth.
I heard recently that a State is planning to ban the Bible. First came the legalization of marijuana here in Canada. I was appalled. What is this? Some alternate universe? Now this? It’s horrific! We, the Christians, are not the problem. Yet the world is happy to accuse us and believe horrid things about us. We are marked and targeted. The people of God have often been a persecuted people. That’s not going to stop. I shake my head at these cutsie little clips, “It’s going to go up from here.” “The best is yet to come.” Yeah, when Jesus comes. Not before. Unless you fall, hook line and sinker for false peace.
Matthew 24:9-10 Then shall they deliver you up to be afflicted, and shall kill you: and ye shall be hated of all nations for my name’s sake. And then shall many be offended, and shall betray one another, and shall hate one another.
I recently read in Ezra 5 where God’s enemies reported to the King that if he allowed God’s people to continue building he wouldn’t get his tax money etc. It’s nothing new that the people of God are slandered.
Psalm 101:5 Whoso privily slandereth his neighbour, him will I cut off: him that hath an high look and a proud heart will not I suffer.
Waves of nausea.
My God, keep me from the slander of others. And forgive me my slander!
The devil himself is the accuser of the brethren.
Revelation 12:10 And I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, Now is come salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of his Christ: for the accuser of our brethren is cast down, which accused them before our God day and night.
The Bible tells us we are to be subject to the rulers. And we do. Only in the event where God’s law supersedes. We must obey God rather than men. And then, we accept the punishment for choosing the Lord’s side. That day will come. Yet there is encouragement in all of this. When we are doing things for God, God will take care of us. We will not die before we’ve done all we have to do for HIm. Continue doing the work for God. Even when things get hard, continue on. Those that trust in God will not be put to confusion. The world loves its own. Why are we going through attacks? It’s because we’re not of the world. Be thankful when it hates you. We are Christ’s.
The world is not my home, but it’s what I know. When I see the news Im in a bit of a shock. Can’t bury head in sand anymore. I can’t la la la anymore. I see it coming. It’s accurate with Scripture. How can you say the Bible is false?
Now, I have recently heard tell that there are talks of bringing in a one world government within 12 years!
God is not surprised. Neither am I. The difference, well, one of the differences between the Holy One of Israel and I is that He isn’t biting His fingernails. He is God. He has not lost, nor has He surrendered His sovereignty.
There’s no way you can convince me that this isn’t the end of the age. We don’t know the day or the hour, that much is true, but Jesus said we will know the seasons. I don’t know about you, but I see prophecy is fulfilling right in front of my eyes. Which is rather frightening, if I let my flesh speak. And even more frightening, or amazing… that it lines up perfectly with the Scriptures. I think of a huge one that has recently come to pass. Jerusalem (it always was, but anyway…) is now Israel’s. Whatever your standpoint on politics the fact remains that God is able to use His own, and those that are without to bring to pass His will and His purposes. All of our hearts are in His hands. Think of Pharaoh!
What I’m trying to say is while we yet have time we need to be about our Father’s business. We need to be busy working for the Kingdom. But we can’t forget the God of all this. We have to make sure we ourselves are “rooted and grounded”. I think back to the small blog I wrote before this one. I mentioned that we have to determine to be steadfast. We have to deliberately choose to follow God whatever the circumstance. I think Kingdom work can go two wide swings, either we want nothing to do with it.. always taking, or avoiding… whichever way you want to look at it. Or we can be constantly giving and giving our time, service, etc, making ourselves so busy for God that we forget God…squeezing Him out of our lives, never realizing it… or perhaps, worse, assuming that it’s ok and that He understands cuz after all we are serving Him. There’s got to be a middle ground for sure.
Live for God now. But be sure He comes first in all things.
2 Peter 1:10 Wherefore the rather, brethren, give diligence to make your calling and election sure: for if ye do these things, ye shall never fall:
For the past while I have been troubled about our approach to God. It could very well be from reading nearly all of the Old Testament, or it could be a prophetical warning message from God. Regardless of what or where it comes from, it is of God for it confirms itself in the Word of God. I worry about the way we approach God. I worry we take a “Casual Friday” attitude with God. He is become Familiar to us. That’s terrifying. Sometimes I think that over the years especially we’ve lost our sight of Who God is. We’ve somehow painted Him into a “God of our own making.” All love. All heaven. All butterflies and forgiveness. And that’s why, I’m sure, grace is abused so much.
I would never dare to say that God is not a God of love, or He has no grace and mercy, but I can’t help but remember that Jesus preached more on hell then He did of heaven. Yes, He died to redeem our souls. He is the Lover of our soul. He is the Friend to those that OBEY Him. Not just believe. The devils also believe in God.
James 2:19 Thou believest that there is one God; thou doest well: the devils also believe, and tremble.
I recall reading that verse and being troubled even when I was without God. That the devils tremble before Him and we skip into His presence with a la-tee-da approach.
Weeks have passed since this initial thoughts came over me, and so I am working backwards, in a way.
A few days ago I sat down to do my afternoon devotions. As I began to pray, this heaviness came over me. My head and shoulders felt so unbearably heavy and I could feel myself bowing myself down. I couldn’t get past how great He is and who I am. I recalled reading in the Psalms the day before, or earlier that very morning how He is great then the heavens. Even as I’d mentioned in the last blog of Solomon’s prayer, the very heavens cannot contain Him! How is it that this great God would desire to dwell within me?
Consider the greatness of our God. There is NONE like Him.
Psalm 8:1,3,4 O Lord, our Lord, how excellent is thy name in all the earth! who hast set thy glory above the heavens. When I consider thy heavens, the work of thy fingers, the moon and the stars, which thou hast ordained; What is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him?
1 Kings 8:27 But will God indeed dwell on the earth? behold, the heaven and heaven of heavens cannot contain thee; how much less this house that I have builded?
He is greater than the heavens. He is greater than the expansive galaxies. He is brighter then the sun. He is fairer then the lilies. Just think on Him! I know the more I do, the smaller I feel, the lower I feel. If my body wasn’t aging so rapidly, I would fall prostrate. I’ll leave that for my glorified body in heavens. This is just a glimpse of glory! How great our God is! Who am I? Who am I that You should look upon me?
I think pride is likely the sin found most in the Christians of today. It’s easy to understand. Well, we are the saved. We are the chosen. I recall writing about how daily I would run to see if it was “today” that God saved me. It was never quite clear 100%. I could only see as the days went on that my love for the world, and the worldly entertainment and other wickedness was no longer found. And I know that I don’t have the willpower of my own. One wonderful thing about that, was that I was able to see what I was. What God brought me from. A foul-mouthed, dirty minded wretch. Oh the blood of Jesus! It washes white as snow!
Isaiah 1:18 Come now, and let us reason together, saith the Lord: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool.
We feel pride over just about everything. Or is it just me? I think collectively for this moment. Doesn’t the Pastor feel pride that his churches membership is growing? That’s just one example! I recall talking to my dad a few days ago on this very thing. In fact it was he who mentioned about church membership and numbers and I found myself saying, “I don’t care! I don’t care to be numbered! I don’t care about membership! I just want to be in God’s number! I just want to be in the remnant!”
Remnant. It even SOUNDS small. Jesus said the way is straight, narrow is the gate, FEW will find it.
Isaiah 1:9 Except the Lord of hosts had left unto us a very small remnant, we should have been as Sodom, and we should have been like unto Gomorrah.
We are nothing! Why such a prideful view of ourselves? The song says “You are not dependent on anything we can do.” God is not benefitted from us. If I think God is leaning forward, expectantly HOPING I will say He is great in my writing as an “affirmation”, He’s NOT. Whether I say it or not… He is great!
This prideful view of ourselves can drive us to even worse. Where we come to a place where we assume that we can saunter before God. He’s familiar to us. Perhaps it comes down that we have known Him since infanthood. Or we’ve said the sinners prayer back in 1976. Casually, we approach Him. And I believe that’s wrong. I think there’s a huge difference between “coming boldly before the throne of grace” which depicts to me knowing that because of Jesus’ Blood I am ABLE to come to Him and coming nonchalantly. Reverence pushed aside. He is our “Daddy” after all.
We’re too casual. He deserves so much more. Holiness unto the Lord. Sanctified. Perfect. There should be no sloppiness. God is still the same God. God IS a God of love, Jesus died for me! He’s the Lover of my soul. But He is more than that! “Knowing the TERROR of the Lord, we persuade men…”. Doesn’t sound too “loving.”
You see, He’s also the consuming fire.
He is the same God all throughout the Bible. He’s so beautiful, so tender and loving, and yet. God is so holy. I’m scared we’re not treating Him with enough reverence.
I read Ezra 9. I’d go as far to say this is not a book that is cracked open often. I was humbled. I was shaken. I was burdened. I was convicted. And it has.not.lifted. I consider this the Lord trumpeting a warning…
“He who has ears to hear, let him hear.”
Ezra 9:1 (a), 2(b),3-4Now when these things were done, the princes came to me, saying, The people of Israel, and the priests, and the Levites, have not separated themselves from the people of the lands, doing according to their abominations… the holy seed have mingled themselves with the people of those lands… And when I heard this thing, I rent my garment and my mantle, and plucked off the hair of my head and of my beard, and sat down astonied. Then were assembled unto me every one that trembled at the words of the God of Israel, because of the transgression of those that had been carried away; and I sat astonied until the evening sacrifice.
“…everyone that trembled at the words of the God of Israel…”
I read that and it came to mind when Moses made a separation, a line was drawn between those that truly worshipped God and those who’d turned aside.
Exodus 32: 26 Then Moses stood in the gate of the camp, and said, Who is on the Lord’s side? let him come unto me. And all the sons of Levi gathered themselves together unto him.
That was a huge one. Are we playing church? Hypocrites abound. Am I one?
I continued, soberly, the knots in my stomach growing tighter. How far we have fallen, O God, where we are nearly indistinguishable between the world. The fact is, dear reader, that no one should have to ask if we are a Christian. They should see it! They should see that we have “been with Jesus.” Are we bearing fruits? My God!
Ezra 9:5-6 And at the evening sacrifice I arose up from my heaviness; and having rent my garment and my mantle, I fell upon my knees, and spread out my hands unto the Lord my God, And said, O my God, I am ashamed and blush to lift up my face to thee, my God: for our iniquities are increased over our head, and our trespass is grown up unto the heavens.
Where’s that swagger? Where’s that, “God owes me something” attitude we often approach Him with? My God, Ezra couldn’t bear the fact that they’d sinned.
I downright wept.
I recalled the prayer of the Publican. “God be merciful to me a sinner.”
See, it doesn’t matter the length of our prayers. It’s the attitude, it’s the heart behind them. God doesn’t hear the prayer of those that keep iniquity in their heart. God doesn’t hear when we pray “for show” (to ourselves) as the Publican’s counterpart, the Pharisee did. His ear is only ever open for the contrite, sincere heart.
Ezra cried out in repentance for the nations sins. He owned their sins. He didn’t pass the blame. They had done wickedly, blatant disobedience to what God had required of them. Despite the punishment come upon the nation, he restated that God was merciful, even in the midst of punishment. He always punishes less than what we deserve. Don’t you know it would be just of God to strike us dead? He is holy! We are not.
I noted something in the ending of his humble prayer. Something I hope we see clearly. Something I pray God opens our understanding to. Israel was severely punished for their sins. We are given recordings of it. We recall to mind the Scripture that says that the Word of God is for our instruction, right? Well, we have no excuse. Israel had more excuse then we for they didn’t have the complete word of God! Those that know more, will be judged more!
God gave His law. Be holy. Be separated. Don’t be tainted, don’t be blemished with this world. The Word we have now is greater than they of old had. We are more advantaged. Our punishment will be worse. Don’t follow after them. Not make same mistakes as they did. It would be just for God to consume us. And yet somehow this great God gives mercy. If mercy is spurned and spurned this long the horrible judgment will be all the worse. Mercy will not last forever. Seek God for salvation now. How can we say that God is unfair? All we have to do is walk holy. It’s not hard. it takes guts. That’s about it. God made it so easy for us. There is no excuse.
Ezra 9:14-15 Should we again break thy commandments, and join in affinity with the people of these abominations? wouldest not thou be angry with us till thou hadst consumed us, so that there should be no remnant nor escaping? O Lord God of Israel, thou art righteous: for we remain yet escaped, as it is this day: behold, we are before thee in our trespasses: for we cannot stand before thee because of this.
Where do we stand? I look at my own life. How many times have I looked back to the sins God delivered me from? Sighed for them. We’re tainted. We’re too worldly. We’re no different from the world. We go to the movies, we listen to the songs… there’s little to no distinction. The apostasy? It’s now. The great falling away is beginning. People are showing whose they are.
2 Thessalonians 2:3 Let no man deceive you by any means: for that day shall not come, except there come a falling away first, and that man of sin be revealed, the son of perdition;
Matthew 24:12 And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.
It’s not always an abrupt falling away. And I actually think it is worse for that reason. It’s gradual. Church is less important. Prayer? No time for that. Bible study? I already know it all. Weariness takes over, even. We’ve served God faithfully for twenty-five years. It’s bad enough that we’re starting to question if God is Truth… IS He coming back? What’s taking so long… I guess I can stumble a little. I’ve been “holy” for 30 years, surely I can have a bit of fun. My overall goodness will outweight whatever sin I may do. Gradually, gradually the candle… the Holy Ghost fire… is extinguished.
Matthew 24:44-51 Therefore be ye also ready: for in such an hour as ye think not the Son of man cometh. Who then is a faithful and wise servant, whom his lord hath made ruler over his household, to give them meat in due season? Blessed is that servant, whom his lord when he cometh shall find so doing. Verily I say unto you, That he shall make him ruler over all his goods. But and if that evil servant shall say in his heart, My lord delayeth his coming; And shall begin to smite his fellowservants, and to eat and drink with the drunken; The lord of that servant shall come in a day when he looketh not for him, and in an hour that he is not aware of, And shall cut him asunder, and appoint him his portion with the hypocrites: there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth.
God does not beg.
Are we Christ’s? The remnant is so small.
Do we tremble at the word of the Lord? Do we grieve and weep at the sins of others? are we laughing at their falling? are we restoring them? Are we warning them? …knowing the terror of the Lord we persuade men.
2 Corinthians 7:9-11 Now I rejoice, not that ye were made sorry, but that ye sorrowed to repentance: for ye were made sorry after a godly manner, that ye might receive damage by us in nothing. For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death. For behold this selfsame thing, that ye sorrowed after a godly sort, what carefulness it wrought in you, yea, what clearing of yourselves, yea, what indignation, yea, what fear, yea, what vehement desire, yea, what zeal, yea, what revenge! In all things ye have approved yourselves to be clear in this matter.
This is the spirit of repentance that desperately needs to fall. It’s not enough for “im sorry”. It’s so much more than that. its more then just “sorry”. It’s got to be real repentance. A complete turn about. It’s so much more then a sinners prayer. There’s going to be a rude awakening.
Where did we get this “God is only love” notion? This is the same God as He ever was. He warns us that we must bear fruit. If we don’t we are dead, no matter what we want to deceive ourselves into thinking and are fit only for the fire. This is the same God that cries out against lukewarmness with an image of spewing us out! This is the same God who says if your eye offend you (to sin) PLUCK IT OUT that you don’t burn in hell! My God! Can you hear the trumpeted warning?!
Again, we have no excuse. we have the bible. It’s in our language, in our homes, accessible by the internet…
And, its not enough just to say we read it. We have to study it. Pray for godly wisdom. Pray for revelation. Pray for understanding. He’s faithful!
If after we know the truth we go back we’re without excuse. I don’t even want to think about judgment day. I believe God gave us a glimpse of those in that situation.
2 Peter 2:3(b),4-6,12-15,17,20-22… their damnation slumbereth not. For if God spared not the angels that sinned, but cast them down to hell, and delivered them into chains of darkness, to be reserved unto judgment; And spared not the old world, but saved Noah the eighth person, a preacher of righteousness, bringing in the flood upon the world of the ungodly; And turning the cities of Sodom and Gomorrha into ashes condemned them with an overthrow, making them an ensample unto those that after should live ungodly; But these, as natural brute beasts, made to be taken and destroyed, speak evil of the things that they understand not; and shall utterly perish in their own corruption; And shall receive the reward of unrighteousness, as they that count it pleasure to riot in the day time. Spots they are and blemishes, sporting themselves with their own deceivings while they feast with you; Having eyes full of adultery, and that cannot cease from sin; beguiling unstable souls: an heart they have exercised with covetous practices; cursed children: Which have forsaken the right way, and are gone astray, following the way of Balaam the son of Bosor, who loved the wages of unrighteousness These are wells without water, clouds that are carried with a tempest; to whom the mist of darkness is reserved for ever. For if after they have escaped the pollutions of the world through the knowledge of the Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, they are again entangled therein, and overcome, the latter end is worse with them than the beginning. For it had been better for them not to have known the way of righteousness, than, after they have known it, to turn from the holy commandment delivered unto them. But it is happened unto them according to the true proverb, The dog is turned to his own vomit again; and the sow that was washed to her wallowing in the mire.
I noted something the other week. I noticed that my “followers” dwindle every time I post a heavy message. It stings. In my flesh I feel sad and rejected. I mentioned in blogs and to people that it seems that when you truly live for God in sincerity, the attacks come worse than ever before. I mentioned it to Sister P. She pointed out how much worse Jesus must have felt to see all the disciples run, Peter deny Him, and even now seeing those for which He came to save spurning Him. So what have I to complain of? It still hurts. I get it. I do. But it still hurts. I feel alone. I won’t back down to “save face” though. The Bible says we cannot have both Him and the love of the world. One must die. I told that to my dad this past week. I know I am not alone, though alone, because I serve the God as Daniel. He was with Daniel. He is with me. I serve the God as Paul. He was with Paul, He is with me.
2 Timothy 4:16-17 At my first answer no man stood with me, but all men forsook me: I pray God that it may not be laid to their charge. Notwithstanding the Lord stood with me, and strengthened me; that by me the preaching might be fully known, and that all the Gentiles might hear: and I was delivered out of the mouth of the lion.
Dad said something to me. “God knows His soldiers.”
I’m going to stand by His grace.
Separate from the filthiness of the world now. Make sure you’re on “God’s side” of the line. Don’t be a pretend Christian. God is not fooled by hypocrisy. Be pure. Don’t be a muddled mess. Make sure you are the virgin Christ is coming for… unblemished and unspotted.Make up your mind now… before persecution comes “home”… serve the Lord will all your heart, mind, soul and strength. Be faithful.
I was reading of the building of Solomon’s temple. The reverence where they would not even tap the stones inside, but brought them in pre-made. I think often of the holy angels, those that never sinned, that obey God without delay who cannot bear to look upon God but cover, as Isaiah said in chapter 6, their faces as they cry out “Holy! Holy! Holy!” What’s wrong with me? I feel we are not cutting it with holiness unto the Lord.
I was reading of when Jesus threw out the money changers in the temple. Righteous anger! God’s house is to be a house of prayer! We, now, are the temple of the living God, yet we allow willful sin? How is that any different? God will NOT allow sin. He hates it. There should be no irreverence in the house of God. What must God think of our Bingo nights? Man made programs? Oh God!
The Holy Spirit is our seal. The Bible says if it is in us at the last day we also will rise in the last day. (Romans 8:11). The Bible warns us not to grieve the Holy Spirit. It’s the unpardonable sin. If He leaves us- JUSTLY- we won’t rise in the last day!
Ephesians 4:30 And grieve not the holy Spirit of God, whereby ye are sealed unto the day of redemption.
Without the Holy Spirit we are NONE of His. Don’t deceive yourself.
Romans 8:9 But ye are not in the flesh, but in the Spirit, if so be that the Spirit of God dwell in you. Now if any man have not the Spirit of Christ, he is none of his.
If we are constantly allowing sin in our life, turning from Him, rejecting Him, how dare we think that we are God’s and that all is well? A rude awakening. A shakedown is coming. Judgment must begin in the House of God.
1 Peter 4:17 For the time is come that judgment must begin at the house of God: and if it first begin at us, what shall the end be of them that obey not the gospel of God?
The warning has sounded.