A lot has changed in the past 9 years. In 2010, as I mentioned previously I came across Irvin Baxter and my eyes were opened, saucer-wide, to the fact that everything I’d believed in concerning the time of the end was wrong. Left Behind, although a great Christian novel, is more fictional then just the character names. The events are wrong, and yet since they sold so well, and even when so far as to reintroduce the series with what-his-name in a new video, I’m sure more people have been caught up in the relief the book offered. Believe in Christ? You’re outta here before it gets too bad.
False, but I can understand why people flock to this notion.
Who wants to suffer? Not me. I get a papercut and my eyes water for crying out loud.
Who wants to suffer for the cause of Christ? I hang my head and deliberately avoid any news media that has Christians being beheaded for Christ, despite those being few and far between.
If nothing else, I’m sure we can agree that what is happening to Christians is so far off the mainstream media that you’d think everything was a-ok. What a shame.
Back in 2010, after finding out the truth and being alarmed to death, I remember plain as day starting a new pinterest board. Don’t laugh. It was my dream, my plan, visually. What fish medication can I substitute for human medicine? After all, most doctors would more then raise a brow if I asked for 3 1/2 years worth – all at once- of medicine, right? RFID blocking tarps and blankets… the latest knife that could double as protection and to delicately skin a mouse… goodness knows I’d have no choice but to eat anything that crossed my path when my 100th can of tuna ran out.
By 2011, I didn’t care anymore. I’d like to say I was just backsliding (yes, I realize that sounds awful casual…), but I believe now looking back that I had no part in Christ at all. And again I am so thankful 2011 didn’t start the end of the age, or worse… I didn’t die. God is merciful.
By… 2016 or so, I revisited my pinterest board and then ran across articles that said don’t broadcast your plans. If you have an extensive stockpile, munitions, what have you, even if it’s for the apocalypse, you can be alerting the government that you are a problem.
Down went the board.
Up went the code words in my conversations.
“So Iast I counted I have 71 T.C in my s.p.”
Goodness knows if anyone understood me, lol
Then, once again, “I fell off the wagon.”
Now, 2019, I am IN Christ, which is most important, and stocking up wax for “doomsday” so I have “familiarity” even when everything is chaotic turmoil.
I came just short of measuring just how much dishsoap I use on a daily basis to jot down how many EXACTLY I’d need to survive 3 1/2 years, God willing He spare me that long.
Needless to say, there were times when I’d have my sheet of paper before me, groaning inwardly at the cost to purchase… 36 packs of toilet paper… and have it “flash” that this is futile and I need to trust God, but “common sense”… known as weak flesh and doubts and all that is evil and human would rise up enough to plug my ears and jot down the next figure.
But I think something has changed.
Firstly, I want to point out that having a bug out bag, a 72 hour kit, some canned food in hand, along with the most precious thing of all… water… is wisdom. I look at what happened in Venezuela and I can’t get my mind around being in such a predicament. Economic chaos. I can’t imagine being in a situation where I go to the store and the shelves are cleared out, all but a jar of pickled eggs… no thanks, by the way, I’ll die. Or worse… as Revelation declares pointedly, that without the mark you cannot buy or sell. I can’t imagine being turned away unless I participate with the majority of society just to get a loaf of bread when I’m starving. But the Bible is clear.
For those that have little ones, especially with them, I cry for you. I can’t imagine a Hagar situation, “Lord, don’t let me see my son die.” What will it take for you to bow down and get the mark you rejected before?
I’d like to point out I… unlike what some say… am not a pessimistic person. I don’t think doom and gloom all the time, but I think it’s wise to determine now, no matter what, no matter how hard, no matter the situation… I will never bow down to another god… the world system… or any else.
Your moment of relief… a roof over your head (how will you pay your rent, mortgage, land tax if you have no money because you cannot work/buy/sell?), soup in your tummy, will cost you eternity in hell if you receive the mark.
And it’s coming.
You can be sure of that.
Things like this trouble me in a way though because immediately I think how will we survive?
The fact is, I don’t know.
I believe many of us will die. Whether because we refuse to the government’s face that we will serve the Lord only, or possibly from starvation…
But I think I found some comfort.
And a lesson for anyone like me.
And, I know it’s not only me that thinks this way, in fact as I was reading the Word this morning, I had a flashback of all the similar pinterest boards like mine. Many were silly… “Zombie Apocalypse”, but there were the odd one here and there “Great Tribulation Survival”. Regardless, I remember back when going through even the Zombie boards to collect ideas for my own stash. Thousands upon thousands of pins. It would take hours to go through each one, and that’s not even opening links! So much time and effort went into these thoughtfully filled boards.
It started on Saturday. Simply, with Luke’s rendition of the Lord’s prayer.
Luke 11:1-4 And it came to pass, that, as he was praying in a certain place, when he ceased, one of his disciples said unto him, Lord, teach us to pray, as John also taught his disciples. And he said unto them, When ye pray, say, Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done, as in heaven, so in earth. Give us day by day our daily bread. And forgive us our sins; for we also forgive every one that is indebted to us. And lead us not into temptation; but deliver us from evil.
I’m not saying that the other gospels “Give us this day…” don’t make an impact like Luke’s but I did stop and reread it.
“Give us day by day our daily bread.”
Don’t give me tomorrow’s today that I be gluttonous.
Don’t give me tomorrow’s food that after I have a nice stock I forget about You til I’m in dire straits again.
Don’t give me tomorrow’s today because it might go bad as the manna did in the wilderness.
I’m trusting you for today’s food.
I’m trusting You for tomorrow’s food.
Give me day by day my food.
You know I need to eat tomorrow as well as today. And I know You are able to feed me. Your pantry isn’t dwindling.
Whether it’s a basket left on my doorstep, or a meal invitation, or a can of beans in my cupboard bought with money You graciously provided…
Whether it’s a rabbit I was able to catch, whether it’s wild edible greens, whether it’s manna, whether it’s a raven bringing me food… O God You are able!
Give me day by day my food.
Well, that was profound.
But He continued. And again I say I’ve heard sermons, I’ve read it myself, I’ve read and heard it since I was “in my mother’s womb”, and yet… Saturday was the first day… I GOT IT.
I definitely consider myself not to have appertained.
Luke 11:5-8 And he said unto them, Which of you shall have a friend, and shall go unto him at midnight, and say unto him, Friend, lend me three loaves; For a friend of mine in his journey is come to me, and I have nothing to set before him? And he from within shall answer and say, Trouble me not: the door is now shut, and my children are with me in bed; I cannot rise and give thee. I say unto you, Though he will not rise and give him, because he is his friend, yet because of his importunity he will rise and give him as many as he needeth.
In the Word of God, elsewhere, it tells us, God is good, He gives even to the unthankful and the evil. What?! That floors me. I’m the one… “Are you worthy?” And that’s the honest truth. If you spit in my cheerios, I will never speak to you again! Not God. He gives to the unthankful (oh that’s not a big sin… is it? Yes… yes it is) and the EVIL.
But this verse above clarified things for me.
I am God’s child. I have rights to come to His throne… anytime… “Lord, I’m in a fix! I’m hungry!”
Re-read it, if you will… this is speaking of an earthly friendship.
Raise it to the heavenlies, as immediately after Jesus says, “Ask and you shall receive…”.
Jesus knows our thoughts as words. He knows our motives. He knows all things. His eyes are upon us… Psalm 139 tells me so! He knows the day will come when we are hungry and perhaps like Jonah, are sitting under the shade of a leaf instead of having a roof over our head.
In that day, our friendship will count for everything.
“Lord, I’m hungry!”
“…because He is his friend…”. Oh that’s a tough one to swallow. It doesn’t say in that moment, that God will be good to the evildoer and send a raven to feed the wicked. No, it’s for His friend that He rises up for.
Those are friends of God who hear the word of God and do it!
“…He will provide!”
Well, I wouldn’t say that over Sunday that this beautiful truth slipped my mind. But it mellowed down I’m sure with two services, and weekend events.
How glad I was to open up the precious word of God this morning to the next chapter in Luke.
Luke 12:11-12 And when they bring you unto the synagogues, and unto magistrates, and powers, take ye no thought how or what thing ye shall answer, or what ye shall say: For the Holy Ghost shall teach you in the same hour what ye ought to say.
What’s this got to do with stockpiling? Everything! I realized this morning that when we read Scriptures such as the above, or “Don’t trust in princes,” “Don’t trust in the arm of man…” it’s all interweave perfectly. We aren’t to trust man, the government, ourselves… we are fleshly, we will fail. We have to trust in God, He is from everlasting to everlasting. He fails not! These to verses above humbled me as realization came. It’s not a sin to think, and be aware of what is coming… rapidly, I might add. But if we have everything planned out, rehearsed, stocked, we are trusting in our own strength. It won’t be God that is speaking, it will be us, and that is sin. We’re fallible, He infallible. I don’t know about you, but in the day to come, I want it to be Him who speaks for me, because I’m a puddle without Him. Help me, O Lord.
Luke 12:15 And he said unto them, Take heed, and beware of covetousness: for a man’s life consisteth not in the abundance of the things which he possesseth.
Well, I’m glad I was sitting. As, lo and behold, from the above verse that had me bemoaning my wax stockpile- again, don’t laugh… he continued to speak… in my mind, of the great stockpile. As you read, you may want to note that no where in this parable does God say he is a wicked man… He was merely rich, and being rich is not a sin.
Luke 12:16-20 And he spake a parable unto them, saying, The ground of a certain rich man brought forth plentifully: And he thought within himself, saying, What shall I do, because I have no room where to bestow my fruits? And he said, This will I do: I will pull down my barns, and build greater; and there will I bestow all my fruits and my goods. And I will say to my soul, Soul, thou hast much goods laid up for many years; take thine ease, eat, drink, and be merry. But God said unto him, Thou fool, this night thy soul shall be required of thee: then whose shall those things be, which thou hast provided?
Well that went from promising to horrible in a moment! To have spent your whole life accumulating… stockpiling whether it be for the end of days, or for your kids university, slaving and toiling away… to the neglect of your soul and of God…
Luke 12:21 So is he that layeth up treasure for himself, and is not rich toward God.
If I had spare tears I would have wept.
I was reproved.
I mentioned at the beginning of this blog seeing thousands of pinners pinning thousands of pins on survival-ism. Countless hours. Careful research. I have no doubt that even ones with silly names like “Zombie Apocalypse” are completely sincere. I recall seeing a show years ago, “Doomsday Preppers.” Whatever their idea of “the end” was, they were serious, frugal, resourceful, smart people.
But it made me shudder, verse 21. So busy accumulating and planning (and its seriously time consuming) that God is either not thought of or pushed aside. Self-sufficient is rampant among “preppers” (and others…). I don’t need your help, I don’t need God’s help. I can do it myself, all alone. Look at my cubby hole, it looks like a grocery store. I follow strictly “FIFO” (first in, first out) rotation, I have case upon case of Mr. Noodles… I have chocolate bars for sanity and familiarity (or wax…). I have 25 guns, I can protect myself.. I in myself am enough. Bring. It. On.
Thou fool. Thou fool who shoves God aside, or thinks not of Him. Fear not man! What’s the worst they do? Kill you? Fear God who can destroy both body and soul! Yes, fear Him!
Oh, I don’t even have a stockpile. Mine depleted in a sudden move where I lost everything (see how fickle?). But I can do one of two things. Again, I don’t consider it a sin to have a bug out bag…
I can spend the next little while accumulating and accumulating a stock that… let’s be honest, how are you going to carry your 1000 cans of tuna in the woods? Or I can use wisdom and discretion, but my main time and priority is stockpiling God’s Word in my heart.
Man cannot live by bread alone.
Luke 12:28-29 If then God so clothe the grass, which is to day in the field, and to morrow is cast into the oven; how much more will he clothe you, O ye of little faith? And seek not ye what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink, neither be ye of doubtful mind.
Don’t doubt His goodness, His ability or His caring…
Luke 12:30-31,34-36 For all these things do the nations of the world seek after: and your Father knoweth that ye have need of these things. But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you. For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also. Let your loins be girded about, and your lights burning; And ye yourselves like unto men that wait for their lord, when he will return from the wedding; that when he cometh and knocketh, they may open unto him immediately.